True Worship

Yesterday, I sat in church for the first time. Not really. But if a worship service is truly about worshipping God, then it might have been a time of only few for me. Over the past forty + years, somewhere along this Christian walk, I have made my experience of church about me. My lensContinue reading “True Worship”

Jude’s Advice

Sometimes, my scrolling takes me by surprise, and I stumble upon ideas and controversy that leave me unsettled and floundering. How can an opinion hold so much power in my heart? I struggle so deeply with this, it keeps me from peace many times. And I am sure, I’ve pushed people away with my ownContinue reading “Jude’s Advice”

I am losing

I am losing. These three words came out of my mouth the other day. And it surprised me how much they sum up my state of heart when it comes to being the only spiritual leader in my family. On any economy, I am pretty much scraping the barrel, most days, if the currency isContinue reading “I am losing”

A Prayer, Mama

Today, I watch the snow fall in heavy descent. And while the earth is blanketed in white, my thoughts are pressing into the dark corners of my mind. My heart curls its fists as I realize the reason for the additional peace of a snow day—the fact that this day is void of the niggleContinue reading “A Prayer, Mama”

Humility, Love, and Pre-Teens

I am in the thick of teaching my youngest about what it really means to Love sacrificially. A big idea for an eleven year old. But, as I hear about her encounters at school, the societal pressures of a whole student body of pre-teens, and the acceptance rate according to your appearance and your “in”Continue reading “Humility, Love, and Pre-Teens”

Journey Toward Nativity: Into His Life

As I journey toward nativity, I find myself searching for ways to fit Christ in our season. Yesterday was St. Nicholas day, and I will admit, I spent more time focusing on what to put in my kids’ shoes, than contemplating the life of the saint who emanated Christ’s love throughout his lifetime. And yet, last night I was complaining that our Christmas is going to be boring this year—because we don’t have fun plans…you know, that’s what the season is about.

Journey Toward Nativity: Childlike Faith

What does it look like for me? I am far from the heart of a child. But I am fully aware of the examples Christ gives to return to His way. I can rest in repentance, in Hope, in the beauty of Life around me—the witness of God above.